Monday, December 13, 2010

mad props

I give mad props to those who deal with this deployment better then deff takes its toll on you and today has been that one rare day...But every one has them right????

Friday, December 10, 2010

getting this out now


Monday, November 29, 2010

Catching up on times

So I know I havnt really blogged here latley, Just been kinda busy really, I dont have gall stones, so no surgery THANK GOD. lol My thanksgiving went great and I cant wait till next year to share it with my love :) I learned how to crochet also on turkey day. I am in the process of making a blanket.

I cant wait till it is done, Im only on my 4th line but deff getting there. Adam finally got his RR dates and they are very soon. Im pretty stoked, I am hoping that the army dont decided to change them again, If they dont, he will get to be home for my birthday. I have also been thinking of doing some photography on the side. Its such a huge passion....But till next time Im off here to work on that blanket :)

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Worries Beyond The Hollar

This here is my love, The man I care and love so much..But about 6 months into his deployment he changed he said. And it worries me more than anything...He makes me so happy and I havnt been this happy in so long. I want to ask him about it all but at the same time I afraid of the response I will get. He will be home for my birthday and I dont want a heartache on my 24th bday. I dont want to lose the one thing that means so much to me. He is still flying into Indiana then we are going to see his family. I hope and pray that this change did not change his feelings for me. I dont know who else to talk to about this so Im blogging. Im afraid he dont love me any more and that it will all end on rr. I cant handle that right now. I have been by his side this whole time, never cheated and never thought about it. I dont complain when he dont call me, I know he is busy and tired as hell over there. I understand all those things, might of took me a few months but Im ok with it now. I dont ask much from him while he is deployed. I pray all the time things are ok. I know I prob worry to much but its hard not to...

Friday, November 19, 2010

The body is working so far so good

Well I went to the doctor and they said my gallblader looks good, no stones. Im pretty happy about that. Now I just need to wait for my blood results to come in for my A1C. They also wanted me to pee in a cup today, but I just couldnt do it. So who knows what is next. My meds are kinda making me feel like ass today. So I might lay down with my dukers and take a nap. He has been real cuddly here latley. I am also kinda trying a new diet. Its been 5 days since I had a pop and Im kinda going a little crazy. I also have to increase my intake of water. I hate the taste of water. But till I feel like blogging again Im gonna lay down and pray I get a call soon. RR is right around the corner.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My Jealousy And Wishes

I see these girls talking about missing their men while their at work for 8 hours or just getting to see them for a couple hours. My jealousy comes out and I get annoyed. Oh how I would kill for him just working 8 hours or being home for a couple. The things I would to just to be able to touch him again, be able to hug him. Its been a long rough several months. And at the same time, I think some of these other girls are not seeing how lucky they are to have their men home with them. Yes I know I chose to be with him, But my heart chose to fall for him.

But that is enough for my rant, I just had to get that little bit off my cheast. Im missing my love a lot right now.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Pricks & Probes

So here latley my health has been all whoa. First 2 years ago finding out I have type 2 diabetes. Now I have a UTI. I went and had a ultrasound done today to check out my insides. She said everything looked ok but I think she might be lying to me. So I have 2 days before I find out anything on that fun time.

When I went to the hospital Sunday, they poked me twice, my poor finger has a bruise on it and the fold of my arm has one also from them checking my blood. Now I have a doctor appt on Friday for my diabetes. YaY more pokings. Im gonna end up looking like a junkie at the first of the month. I sure hope my A1C have went down. If so maybe lower meds. 

Now I am off to the pharmacy once more to get more meds. So wish me luck with all this crap lol